Monday, June 30, 2008
breakdown emotionally
breakdown emotionally
For the past few days and weeks, I havn't been feeling too well for both my physical and emotional state. My body feels like it will stop functioning any moment sometimes and even myself don't know what's wrong. I just do not dare to go to the doctor although I don't feel right. However, the biggest issue in me is not about me being weak or not feeling good physically. It's me being emotional over the last two couple of weeks, even friends around me have felt it. In the past, I used to forget about my worries and troubles as quick as a Ferrari making its way down the highway. Now, whenever I feel like a breakdown emotionally, I cry (and yes I do). I will either spend my lone time somewhere or soak my pillow wet with tears at night. It must be something reallt big to make someone feel so bad. It's not convenient to say what troubling me here and for those who know me really well know I will never do it. I do not want anyone to come up to me and ask me whats happening to me although I know you care, period.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Im addictive
Im addictive
Addictive content in my personality is 82%
Beware!!! people easily get addicted to me
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Cheese!
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Last 5 minutes of June 15.
Im still waiting for a sms from someone.
Doubt it will ever come.
Did a handwriting test and the following is the analysis which is 80% accurate!
Welcome Calvin Kuah, here is your handwriting analysis.
Calvin uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone.
The circumstances when Calvin does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise.
Calvin will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally.
Calvin is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Calvin doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
Calvin is secretive. He has secrets which he does not wish to share with others. He intentionally conceals things about himself. He has a private side that he intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in his past.
In reference to Calvin's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Calvin slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.
He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Calvin can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Calvin is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Calvin basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.
Calvin is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.
Calvin is very self-sufficient. He is trying not to need anyone. He is capable of making it on his own. He probably wants and enjoys people, but he doesn't "need" them. He can be a loner.
Something is incomplete in Calvin's life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Calvin's sexual needs.
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Cheese!
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Saturday, June 14, 2008
Fuck Dad
Fuck Dad
You f*cking shut your big mouth.
You don't have any rights to interfere with what I do.
You do all your shit and I do mine.
What authority do you have to raise your voice and shout at me?
Keeping quiet doesn't means I'm afraid of you.
Just respect.
Something which I don't think you've learnt in school.
No point arguing with you too, you should stand in my shoes and feel.
You should reflect. Let's see if you are better or worst.
The earlier you do so, the better for you and everyone.
F*ck off.
Pissed.
Dreaded 19.
Friday, June 13, 2008
I don't know why but I just don't feel good.
I want to go to the beach.
Sit on the sand, watch the sun set,
Listen to the sea and feel the wind.
Cheese.
Saturday, June 07, 2008
MIA
MIA
Dead
Full stop
Close this window
Bye
周杰伦: 开不了口
才离开没多久就开始 担心今天的你过得好不好
整个画面是你 想你想的睡不着
嘴嘟嘟那可爱的模样 还有在你身上香香的味道
我的快乐是你 想你想的都会笑
没有你在我有多难熬(没有你在我有多难熬多烦恼)
没有你烦我有多烦恼(没有你烦我有多烦恼多难熬)
穿过云层 我试着努力向你奔跑
爱才送到 你却已在别人怀抱
就是开不了口 让她知道
我一定会呵护着你 也逗你笑
你对我有多重要 我后悔没 让你知道
安静的听你撒娇 看你睡着 一直到老
就是开不了口 让她知道
就是那么简单几句 我办不到
整颗心悬在半空 我只能够 远远看着
这些我都做得到 但那个人已经不是我
Friday, June 06, 2008
Car search
Car search
I want a car next week!
Any kind souls out there know any car rental company in the east?
Plus, they will be willing to rent their car to a new licence holder.
And its the paper licence, yet to receive my card one.
hahahaha.
I don't have to do this if not for my irritating dad.
Cheese
Thursday, June 05, 2008
i need time alone.
i need time alone.
I'm cold, hungry and tired and I've got no mood to do anything.
I need some time to be alone.
There’s something in a simple hug
That always warms the heart;
It welcomes us back home
And makes it easier to part.
A hug’s a way to share the joy
And sad times we go through,
Or just a way for friends to say
They like you ’cause you’re you.
Hugs are meant for anyone
For whom we really care,
From your grandma to your neighbour,
Or a cuddly teddy bear.
A hug is an amazing thing -
It’s just the perfect way
To show the love we’re feeling
But can’t find the words to say.
It’s funny how a little hug
Makes everyone feel good;
In every place and language,
It’s always understood.
And hugs don’t need new equipment,
Special batteries or parts -
Just open up your arms
And open up your hearts.
I will be fine.
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
I passed my driving
I passed my driving
I'm a graduate... from CDC!
I passed my driving! Wheee!
The cheapskate temporary licence which says: You can drive while awaiting the delivery of your photocard driving licence.
Cheese.
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
She's selfish, not me.
She's selfish, not me.
Nowadays, I just happily hit on either the back or close button whenever I read blogs(or rather posts) which I don't like.
No point reading if I know it will spoil my day.
Anyway its her/his blog, what can I do?
She/he got all the rights to rant and type whatever shit she/he wants in her/his private property.
Cheese.
Long live the king
3 more hours to my second try.
Oh. Im feeling weak.
Hope that big-old-fashioned-bespectacled-ferocious tester don't put me under his sabre.
Failing is not an option.
Cheese.
Good luck to me. :)
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Prince Caspian
Prince Caspian
Watched Prince Caspian with L and Z.
I still remember the days in secondary school when Ms Wee, my then English teacher, recommended Chronicles of Narnia. I bought the whole set of Narnia in an attempt to improve my english. Hahah. This installment is surely better than the first.
Storyline: ****
Visual Effects:***
Action: ***
Overall:***
Cheese
