Monday, June 30, 2008
breakdown emotionally
For the past few days and weeks, I havn't been feeling too well for both my physical and emotional state. My body feels like it will stop functioning any moment sometimes and even myself don't know what's wrong. I just do not dare to go to the doctor although I don't feel right. However, the biggest issue in me is not about me being weak or not feeling good physically. It's me being emotional over the last two couple of weeks, even friends around me have felt it. In the past, I used to forget about my worries and troubles as quick as a Ferrari making its way down the highway. Now, whenever I feel like a breakdown emotionally, I cry (and yes I do). I will either spend my lone time somewhere or soak my pillow wet with tears at night. It must be something reallt big to make someone feel so bad. It's not convenient to say what troubling me here and for those who know me really well know I will never do it. I do not want anyone to come up to me and ask me whats happening to me although I know you care, period.
1:22 am .